It’s been a week. One week I never could have imagined. One week I never though we would survive. But we have. We are standing on the other side of one week…. without mom.
And Jesus is here.
That is what we have. That is what we cling to. That is what my soul, in desperation and deepest longing, finds as a tangible resting place.
Scripture is our daily bread. Prayer is our strength. The truth of God and the comfort of the Holy Spirit holds us. Jesus sits in the room.
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. “When he brings out his own sheep, he goes before them; and the sheep follow him, for they know His voice” (John 10:4). “For your heavenly Father knows what you need. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry….” (Matt.6:32-34).
He Makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside still waters. “For so He gives His beloved sleep” (Psalm 127:2). “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest” (Matt.11:28).
He restores my soul; he leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. “But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you” (1 Peter 5:10).
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand” (Isaiah 41:10).
For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulations, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God” (2 Corinthians 1:3-4).
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; “I sat down in His shade with great delight, and his fruit was sweet to my taste. He brought me to the banqueting table, and his banner over me was love” (Song of Solomon 2:3-4).
You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over. “O Lord, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup; You maintain my lot. THe lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; yes, I have a good inheritance….Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices; my flesh also will rest in hope” (Psalm 16:5-6,9).
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; “Cast your burdens on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved” (Psalm 55:22).
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. “One thing I have desired of the Lord, that will I seek; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple. For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion’ in the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock” (Psalm 27:4-5).
So we cry, and we trust, and we lean on Jesus. We hurt, we long and we ache. Never though, do I question: “Why?” I know the answer: Because all the days ordained for us on this life are written in God’s book of life (Psalm 139:16), and May 15, 2013 was just Mom’s day to rejoice in Glory with her Savior and Lord.
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!” Psalm 27:13-14