About fittingintothestory

I love to laugh and would eat granola every day of my life. And curry. I genuinely think most people are born comedians and have no interest in Star Wars or Manga (but I can love people who are into it). I used to want to be the Queen when I got older, or a country-music star. Now, I want to grow up and be a fiery lover and follower Jesus Christ. I cannot do impressions or accents-my voice just gets louder. I happen to enjoy tattoos, and peanut butter. I try to hide my nerdy side but it slips out once in awhile. I feel most free and beautiful when outside, ideally on a canoe trip, and worshiping next to a waterfall. I sing and play instruments - not well, but with lots of energy and with resolve to do it for all eternity. I take great delight in photography and catching glimpses of beauty and fun on film. I tend to get a bit intense and passionate when talking about the beauty of Jesus, the power of the Holy Spirit and the love of the Father. I never play video games, rarely eat sugar, sometimes crave chicken nuggets and road-trips, often host dinner parties, and always dream big. I can dream of nothing better to spend my life pursuing the knowledge of God and the beauty of the Lord through a Sermon on the Mount lifestyle (Matthew 5-7).

Psalm 84 “If…then”

“How lovely is Your tabernacle, O Lord of Hosts! My soul longs, yes, even faints for the courts of the Lord; my heart and flesh cry out for the living God” (Psalm 84:1-2).

In the midst of a season of studying Psalm 84, and wrestling with the tangible longing and thirsting for more of God and to be found in His presence, it has been a blessing to sing on a Worship with the Word set at Sanctuary House of Prayer based on this content. From time in study and prayer, my heart overflowed with this poem expressing that longing:

If You’re after my heart                                    then come and take it                                  If You’re after my affections                             then come and fascinate me                        If You’re after my thoughts                              then come and consume me                        If You’re after my soul                                     then come and have all of me

For the ache is real                                                                                                            the tension is palpable                                                                                                      and the distance too great                                                                                                  for me to do anything                                                                                                           but surrender

All I know is this hunger                                                                                                     All I have is this longing                                                                                                    and grief to be nearer and                                                                                                  to no longer be only “I”                                                                                                       but fully “One”

It’s all I have, and this                                                                                               constant reminder of bounds                                                                                             of humanity barred from                                                                                                        Eden and the desperation to return

Calling “I’m not home yet                                                                                                 nor do I belong here”                                                                                                      This is the temporary                                                                                                 dwelling of a soul                                                                                                       destined for eternity                                                                                                        The shadow of Eden’s                                                                                              memory lays as a shroud                                                                                                and I reach for it –                                                                                                           grasp for a glimpse                                                                                                           The fleeting moment of                                                                                          recollection and recognition;                                                                                                 the pain of the ache is                                                                                                      proof of its truth and existence

The fainting heart of love-sickness                                                                                      is “yes” to the pain of distance                                                                                          so as to lay hold of that                                                                                                 which truly matters and                                                                                                   what will remain when                                                                                                           all else silently fades.

Luke18Project Regional Conference, Mankato,MN

Hope that Reading week is treating you well and you are able to rest, have some fun and accomplish much!I returned from the Luke18 Project conference in Mankato, MN late Sunday night in Winnipeg, feeling like there were some very significant things that took place this weekend which were about more than just a good conference and necessitate a response and step out in faith. I will share some of those things, let you know how I am going to respond, and share how you can get involved as well.
On the road trip there, I had a intense and unusual encounter with the Lord, which in short summation, God spoke powerfully and clearly to me this phrase:
I am stirring up the winds of revival. I am stirring the winds of my spirit to fill young women with boldness to preach the gospel, and to propel young men to the front of the army to lead the charge into revival. I am stirring up the winds of revival again.

Clearly, I knew the Lord was speaking not just about a conference, but rather a reality for an entire region and how He wants to use young people, college students, in this work of revival.
With many reminders throughout the weekend about the simplicity of the gospel of Kingdom, the worthiness of Christ, the joy of extravagant devotion and love for God, the urgency of being consecrated and dedicated to the Lord in a radical way, and the walking out of the calling He has put on our lives – I am responding to the call given by Lou Engle and Brian Kim to:

  1. Start a 21-day fast on 2.22.12 (Wednesday, Feb22)  alongside hundreds of other college students who want to see an “ekklesia revoution” on campuses all through the upper Midwest of the United States and into Canada. (Ekklesia = a gathering of people for the purpose of deliberating, or governing similar to a city council or the heads of state).                                                                                                     “And I also say to you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build My church (ekklesia), and the gates of Hades shall not prevail against it. And I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on the earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven” (Mt.16:18-19).                                                                                                      *This time of fasting and prayer will be about the establishing of prayer on the campuses as well as about personal devotion and consecration to the Lord in our individual lives.  No one is forced to participate; it is simply an invitation if the Lord puts it on your heart.                                                                                  *Reminder: in fasting, it is not about how you do it, but where your heart is in it. Simply reduce the amount of food you are taking in, and increase the amount of time you are praying. Some might choose to go on a juice fast, taking in only liquids, while others might decide to do a “Daniel Fast” of just fruits and vegetables. However it looks, if you feel like you want to do it, just commit and stay steady, asking for grace and help from the Holy Spirit.
  2.   6-Month Commitment to daily praying for a deeper revelation of Jesus. *Out of the same Mt.16 passages about the “ekklesia,” we also find Peter’s confession on who Jesus is, saying: “Thou art, the Christ, the Son of the living God” (v.16). So we want to see Jesus rightly, and to have the simple faith and confession like Peter alive in our hearts. This is an invitation in our personal lives to be praying for God to open our hearts and eyes in new ways and to have our understanding and faith expanded.

I will reference these responses often when we are again on campus for prayer and in Acts2:42 Night meetings. Again, this is all voluntary and simply an invitation to know what is going on with Luke18 Project in a larger sense and participate if it is on your heart. Please feel free to contact me with questions.

Thankful for Mom and Dad

I have so many reasons to be thankful every day. Seriously. I have been attempting to become more intentional about gratitude and thankfulness in my life and it is beginning to transform my perspective and heart.

One of the things I am most grateful for, after the Trinity, the incarnation of Jesus, the resurrection and salvation by faith through grace in Christ Jesus…is my parents.

Mom and Dad just celebrated their 30th wedding anniversary. Unbelievable. It is there example, witness and testimony that has most shaped my life, and their marriage is one of the most beautiful pictures of love, sacrifice, and respect. I am so very thankful.  They genuinely are each others best friend, and are still totally into each other. They laugh together all the time, have adventures and just want to be in the same room. They are a pretty rare find in this time and culture. They set the bar high for marriages, and are creating quite the legacy and heritage. Plus, they are looking awesome! I hope I inherit that too!

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Who am I? Why am I here?

College years: Questions. Beliefs. Philosophies. Experiments. Anxieties. Relationships. Hopes. Dreams.

College years/early 20’s: one of the primary times of life in forming and discovering identity, belief systems and purpose.

The only place that will truly fulfill or answer those longings, questions and searchings is God and His Word. The only One who can truly tell us about who we are or what we are supposed to do with our lives is the One who created us and knows us better than we know ourselves; it is God and God alone who is the giver of identity and purpose. God is the author and perfecter of our faith (and our lives) (Hebrews 12:2).

Psalm 139

O Lord, You have searched me and known me.                                                              You know my sitting down and my rising up;                                                                   You understand my thoughts afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down,          and are acquainted with all my ways. ..                                                                            For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb.                            I will praise you, For I am fearfully and wonderfully made…                                               My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret,                                     and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.                                                     Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.                                                        And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me…

We are valuable and precious to God. He made us and He knows everything about us. And He loves us. Not only that, but He sent His own Son to die on behalf of us. He loves us so much, that He would sacrifice everything so that we could know Him and know how much we are loved and how much worth we have.

So who am I? I am made in the image of God. I am loved. I have been redeemed through Jesus’ blood on the cross. I am made new and pure through His sacrifice. I have been fully accepted into the Beloved as a daughter in the family of God. That is my identity.

Nothing I do, acquire, accomplish or what I look like will ever define who I am. My identity is found in Jesus Christ and what He thinks and says about me.

Revelation 5:9-10

And they sang a new song, saying:                                                                               “You are worthy to take the scroll, and to open its seals;                                                  For You were slain, and have redeemed us to God by Your blood                                    Out of every tribe and tongue and people and nation,                                                         and have made us kings and priests to our God;                                                            and we shall reign on the earth.”

Through Jesus, the primary identity and purpose of our lives is revealed. Anything else we search after or aspire to be outside of this will leave us empty and only satisfied for a short time before we being to look again. Our redemption through Jesus settles the issue of identity once and for all. It also settles the question of why we are on the planet and what our purpose is in living.

Revelation 5 says that because Jesus was slain: 1)We have identity as one redeemed.     2) He came for every single person on the planet (the work of the Cross is not exclusive)  3) Our primary occupation and purpose is to be a priest and king!

Not only have we been given identity, but also define purpose and calling. As believers and lovers of Jesus, we can settle the issue of what our purpose is because we were made to be Priests….to minister to God and Worship Him! In everything we do – work, study, family, jobs, travel, etc., we are called to be a priest first and foremost. We were made for worship. We were given our identity in Jesus so that we would be filled with awe, thanksgiving, love and adoration for truly find the satisfaction of our souls in the place of praise, worship and prayer.

Forever this is what we will be doing. Revelation 4-5 is a picture of what is going on in heaven right now, and what takes place around the throne of God. It is worship. It is praise and proclamation of the holiness and worthiness of Jesus. Heaven is about worship. All created things are made for the glory and praise of God. We will forever, for all eternity, be worshiping Jesus. We may as well get used to it now, and learn about the joy, fullness and glory of worship and step into what we have been created to do. This is our purpose. In all things that we would worship. In all things we would function as priests before God unto the glory and testimony of Jesus.

College students, Young people: In these years of discovery and searching, look to Jesus! Look to God and His Word, and find what is true and what will satisfy your heart and soul for all of eternity. Settle the questions and step into the fullness of what you have been created for.

Christmas Greeting and Winter Semester Newsletter

Christmas and Winter Semester Newsletter

Check out the newsletter and have a sneak peak of some of my sisters wedding pictures…which are so awesome! One of the highlights of my life was standing up for my little sister as she got married. So proud of her.
Photo Credits to the AMAZING Jodi Klassen (Photography by Jodi). Check out her website and enjoy her amazing talent and gift photosbyjodi.com